Feeling down in the dumps today, I finally found out how manipulative people can be, how much they lie, how much they hurt people. I feel useless I should try to start taking my pills again. I am sore as hell, I feel like crying because I know I can't win, I might as well cry anyways, I am losing all of my friends one by one, I am slowly starting to withdraw and I think I might as well give up on friendship I don't really trust any of my so called "Friends" they are never there for me unless they want something, they never back me up or help me out. I am one huge fucking mess. I am sorry... I just want it to be over.